Catching Up

So today I took MB to lunch for his birthday (last Saturday). We’ve been doing this for several years now. We went to PotBelly. I felt bad for him – his aunt passed away on his birthday – not a good way to spend a birthday. So we talked a lot of that. Then he felt bad for bringing all of this up with what I have going on. He really is sweet that way. And he told me I looked good – that was the nicest thing he could have said, knowing what I’m thinking about all of this right now.

L and G come tomorrow to be with me during the surgery. That’ll be both good and potentially hard to deal with. But I’ll get over it. It will be good to have the help and support. Tomorrow I meet with my oncologist, and I hope that we can get some schedules in place.

I saw Atlanta Boy this weekend. He’s doing good. Ellen asked me if I regretted us not being together. And I wasn’t sure what I could answer. I miss him in some ways, but not in others. I’m jealous of his girlfriend, but I don’t know if it’s because I don’t want him to have someone or if it’s because I don’t have someone. I do want him to be happy. I guess I’m more worried that if this relationship he’s in becomes more serious that he’ll drop me. And I don’t want that. Heck, I’ve known the guy for 23 years – I don’t want to lose that.

I also saw the other guys this weekend. E and K actually talked to me when I spoke to them first. But nothing from B. Totally juvenile. And stupid.

What can I say about Hokie Football? We sucked. ‘Nuff said.

Still nothing from FM. And trying not to get depressed over it.