Finding Peace

So today I went down to Blacksburg. Really didn't want to go. I'm getting sick of the crap that is going on and really can't wait to get away from it all for awhile. It's just so stupid. Anyway, the main reason I was going was because I was supposed to meet up with Atlanta Boy. I haven't seen him in quite some time and I wanted to see him. So we met at one bar and had a beer, then went to our favorite place for dinner. Then he walked me back to my car. It's nice how we can still be friends. I'm the only girl that he's ever dated that he's still friends with. And I think it's because we went out for so long. He's the one that I call when I really need to just hear a familiar voice. When my dad was dying, he's the one I was crying to. He got the first phone call when my dad passed away, and he got the phone call when my brother passed away.

But, he usually pulls away when he's dating someone. He feels like it's not right to be friends in that case. And it's frustrating because he and I are just friends. Nothing more. And we'll never be anything more than friends. So there is no reason to pull away. So imagine my surprise when I find out that he's dating someone. Totally surprised since we spent part of the evening together, we're spending most of tomorrow together, and we're sitting together at the game. So it's good to know that he's finally over that stupid quirk of his.

And honestly, I feel at peace with it. I'm glad he's finding someone who can make him happy right now. And that we can still be in each other's lives. He's very special to me and I'd hate to lose that over a relationship.

And MB#1 called me tonight. He wanted me to meet him at the bar by our house, but as he was calling me, he remembered that I was out of town. But if I wasn't out of town, I'd meet him. I'm still thinking about Monday night and what happened and how to deal with that. I really wish our timing would have been better and we could have been at the same point in time together.

MB#2 didn't bowl last night. And that was good. I don't know how much more I can tell him "no, I'm not going out with you and I don't want to sleep with you." I like him as a friends, but that's it.

And nothing from MB#3. He's mad at me because I've told him that there is nothing going on. We haven't been e-mailing like we were before because I've been so busy. I don't have time to e-mail. And I haven't been home to even be on the phone. He just doesn't understand that I can't be there for him all of the time.