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So grandma is going home today. They're still not sure what happened, but they ruled out her heart. Which is good. She has to go see a spine doctor and see if there is anything wrong there. And they think she had a really bad muscle spasm. But that makes no sense - would that cause them to take her via helicopter to the Mayo Clinic?

In other dealings, I got an e-mail from RK today. He's down in Florida, trying to get me to come to Tampa when I'm there over the weekend. But there is no time to do that this trip. It would be fun to see him - it's been over 10 years since we've seen each other. I wrote him back - we'll see if he answers.

When Will This End?

So my stepmom calls me today - before my time to call her. To tell me that she's in Rochester with my Aunt because my grandmother is in the hospital (Mayo Clinic) and they don't know why. She had to get helicoptered there. Something about her heart, but they ruled out a heart attack. So we're playing the waiting game. Again. And it's frustrating. This year has been an ongoing struggle with people's health, and it's annoying. I think we've had enough trauma this year - actually more than enough. My poor stepmother - she's barely keeping it together. Between Dad's death, her mom earlier this year, my brother's death, my uncle's brain struggles, and now this. How much more can she take?

Finding Peace

So today I went down to Blacksburg. Really didn't want to go. I'm getting sick of the crap that is going on and really can't wait to get away from it all for awhile. It's just so stupid. Anyway, the main reason I was going was because I was supposed to meet up with Atlanta Boy. I haven't seen him in quite some time and I wanted to see him. So we met at one bar and had a beer, then went to our favorite place for dinner. Then he walked me back to my car. It's nice how we can still be friends. I'm the only girl that he's ever dated that he's still friends with. And I think it's because we went out for so long. He's the one that I call when I really need to just hear a familiar voice. When my dad was dying, he's the one I was crying to. He got the first phone call when my dad passed away, and he got the phone call when my brother passed away.

But, he usually pulls away when he's dating someone. He feels like it's not right to be friends in that case. And it's frustrating because he and I are just friends. Nothing more. And we'll never be anything more than friends. So there is no reason to pull away. So imagine my surprise when I find out that he's dating someone. Totally surprised since we spent part of the evening together, we're spending most of tomorrow together, and we're sitting together at the game. So it's good to know that he's finally over that stupid quirk of his.

And honestly, I feel at peace with it. I'm glad he's finding someone who can make him happy right now. And that we can still be in each other's lives. He's very special to me and I'd hate to lose that over a relationship.

And MB#1 called me tonight. He wanted me to meet him at the bar by our house, but as he was calling me, he remembered that I was out of town. But if I wasn't out of town, I'd meet him. I'm still thinking about Monday night and what happened and how to deal with that. I really wish our timing would have been better and we could have been at the same point in time together.

MB#2 didn't bowl last night. And that was good. I don't know how much more I can tell him "no, I'm not going out with you and I don't want to sleep with you." I like him as a friends, but that's it.

And nothing from MB#3. He's mad at me because I've told him that there is nothing going on. We haven't been e-mailing like we were before because I've been so busy. I don't have time to e-mail. And I haven't been home to even be on the phone. He just doesn't understand that I can't be there for him all of the time.

ACK!!

I was very bad tonight. Very bad. We went to the Springsteen show - it was me, my friend Lisa, my friend Frenchy and MB#1. We always go to a show together during every tour. And we were flirting around a lot, but that's how we are.

Anyway, afterwards, he dropped me off at my house and came in for a bit. And when he was getting ready to leave, we started kissing. A lot. He's just such a good kisser. And I know it was wrong and he knew it was wrong, but we have this pull towards each other. And we started fooling around a little bit, but stopped ourselves. But man, it was very hard to stop. We had to; it wasn't the right thing. I just wish our timing was better when we were dating.

And he knows my feelings on this subject and he felt bad. But I told him that I never stopped it either. It's so tempting to want to sleep with him. That was never one of our problems. But it sucks that we can't.

Stupid People

Man, people can be really stupid. So I sent out an e-mail today regarding the tailgate, asking people to post what they are bringing. So the married folks respond. The ones that aren't talking to me don't. So now we don't know if there is enough food. Finally tonight, Football boy responds that he's bringing oatmeal for himself, and if anyone wants any, to let him know. So he's bringing oatmeal. But he'll still eat breakfast and lunch. And he's bringing oatmeal for himself. WTF???? Then NC Girl responds that she's bringing corn cakes. Now, she's got 4 people coming and she's bringing corncakes? Another WTF????? Meawhile, 7 of us are bringing enough food for 16 people. We have to, since these stupid people won't respond.

How junior high is this??

I'm glad that that all this is going on. It really has made things easier for me. I don't have to deal with all of the stupid crap that I was hearing for years now. But they really need to grow up. Oh, well, it's their loss.

It's November

I haven't felt much like writing lately. I've been sick for about a week - I'm doing better except for the coughing. That's so annoying! It felt good to have the weekend at home, but I lazed away too much of it. So I'll be spending portions of every evening cleaning instead of doing fun things. Oh, well. C'est la!

Bruce is next weekend - Sunday and Monday. Yippee. I can't wait for that. It'll be a busy few weeks - hair cut and meeting this week, along with bowling. Football Saturday. Concert Sunday and Monday. Bowling the following Thursday, football over the weekend and my open house, which I'll need to get ready for. I'm hoping to get my village out (for the first time in years) in time. I did finish my EDD Countdown for Christmas. I need to get the calendar done - if I like how it looks, I might make some for the holiday bazaar that I'm doing. They would be cool to sell. Then I'll do some more countdowns (Valentine's day, Easter, July 4th, Thanksgiving, Halloween).

Need to start thinking about Christmas and how that's all going to work. We're heading to MN, which'll be hard but at least we'll be together. Now to figure out what gifts to get everyone.

More later.