Reflections

I'm sitting here waiting for the Verizon FIOS people to show up (waiting for 7 hours so far - this is crap!) and watching St. Elmo's Fire and reflecting back on things. I remember when this movie first came out, back in 1985. I went with my (then) best friend Jackie to see it. We were in California, and this movie really made both of us think about a lot of things. I wish I could remember what they were now, but I can't. And that's probably not important. But I do think back over the past 40 years of my life and wonder where the hell it's going. I look back on it and I realize that I really haven't done anything that I wanted to do. And that's really sad. Well, I've done some things. I graduated from college. 4 times. And I have a decent job (but hopefully that'll change and I'll move to a better job). I've got a lot of friends. But I still haven't done a lot of the things I wanted to do. I'm not married - tried it and it didn't work out. No kids - and don't think that'll ever happen. I haven't done much traveling. I haven't saved up like I should have. I don't have other investments (outside of my 401(k)). I haven't moved out of the area - even though I'm not from here, sometimes I feel like I've lived my whole life where I've grown up.

At one time I made a dream page - it listed a few goals that I wanted to accomplish - finishing grad school, buying a place, and doing some traveling. And I did those. So now maybe it's time to make another dream page, or my dream album. I need some goals to focus on again.

So over the next few days, I need to think about what they are. Some are easy - traveling to Switzerland, Ireland, Australia. Others are harder - when do I want to retire? How much money do I want to have to retire? Where do I want to retire to? But this would good for me to do.