Is It The New Year Yet??

I'm ready for this year to be over. It's been quite a crappy one, with everything that has been going on. I know of so many people who have lost loved ones, and we're only in the 4th month! And work has been completely insane. I don't know how I'm expected to get all of the demands put on me done. There aren't enough hours in the day to complete everything. And I am completely sick of working 12-14-16 hour days. I have no life now, and I hate that. I need to get my own life back and get out there and meet new people. I need new adventures. I need things to look forward to again. And I don't have that right now. I don't like the person I'm becoming. I hate all this negativity that surrounds me, and I have to change that. I listen to some of my friends and they have no problems moving on. Why do I?

So it's time to change things. I need to sit down and figure out what I want out of life. I need to make my own goals and start working towards them, not away from them. And what better time than now to do that? I've got my resume almost all updated, so I can post that on a few websites and get it out to some of my recruiter friends. It doesn't hurt to look. And if I can find something else, then I can consider it. It doesn't mean I have to take it. But I need to find something where I'm excited to get up in the morning and go to work. And I don't have that right now.

And I need to get back out in the dating world. And that scares me since I see the type of guys that are out there. And it's a big trust issue. I don't trust men. I get sick of their stories. I see how some of my friends are. Look at Atlanta boy. He has toyed with me for so long, but he won't commit to anything. And we've had such a long history between us. But he makes me so wary about people. And look at Football boy. He's dating this girl who is completely wrong for him. They have nothing in common except for sex and alcohol, and he's so enamored by the thought of settling down that he'll settle for this. Married boyfriend tells me that if we had met now, we'd be together. How can he say that since he's married with child. And Married boyfriend #2 is getting divorced. He said he liked me, but it's not like we've gotten together at all. So what am I supposed to expect? I haven't heard anything from Music boy, which doesn't surprise me, but even when I try, nothing there. So I need to figure out how to meet others.

I need to get back to the gym. I resigned up at Lifetime. Now I have to make myself go. I'm hoping to go tomorrow morning - it would be a great way to start the week, especially since it'll be a very busy week (last week of tax season). And I need to research bike clubs and start getting active that way.